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[Jul. 4th, 2009|10:26 pm] |
Why is it that when im standing there,
You don't even give two seconds?
Am a invincible to you,
Or is it that you really dont care at all?
If you don't, then why do you look my way,
Like a sign calling out to me.
Trying to reach out, guiding
Trying to participate in all I do?
Why waste your time and mine,
If you're not ready for this,
I will definitely not wait for you.
Time is ticking,
Im waiting for you to make your move.
You dont have much time... |
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| Amazed! |
[Jun. 28th, 2009|06:25 pm] |
So we just came back from the land where its 75% off land wide. For starters, not everything was 75% off, you'd be amazed how high they jack up prices because they know tourists would flock their areas. Its disgraceful how one meal, one not so hygienic, one that im so afraid to touch because its so fly infested, God knows what's been in the food, or how you get so freaked because the first thing that comes to your mind is hep b your first instinct is to run, can cost so much that its so much more than what you can find back home.
Another appaling discovery is that they fake almost every brand and promote them in departmental stores. FREAKING DEPARTMENTAL STORES AND NOT JUST ORDINARY ONES. They faked cotton on, fred perry, a&f, american eagle and many others, but seriously cotton on? You have to be joking! Who in the world would want to do that? Its a complete joke! You think just by flipping the logos, you can deceive innocent people thinking that they've bought the real deal, when it's some unknown brand with a logo that belongs to the real label only flipped? They think the label they've bought is amazing and must be real cause its from a departmental store and another name? Who are you trying to kid? What are you trying to promote here? I can't believe the audacity certain people have. It is extremely shocking! Very disgraceful behaviour!
And to fake cotton on? Why? Who in the world would do that! It is already so cheap, why would you want to do that? I've got nothing left to say. I guess its the reason why i never go there unless absolutely necessary. And im glad im not as crazed over it as certain people are. Never shall i step foot on soil like that for no good reason. Faking cotton on is not cool, fail!!' |
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| Pretend that im ok with it all, and act like there's nothing wrong |
[Jun. 10th, 2009|08:52 pm] |
Why is it that after all these years of trying, i can never seem to forget?
Its been so long and just the mention of your name and i feel like crap.
I try to pretend that everything's ok, i thought that they were
I guess i was just merely storing that distant memory at the back of my mind, hoping to never bring it back again.
But why at such a small mention, my whole world starts to turn, why does it have to hurt so bad.
I don't want to continue feeling like that anymore.
I've had enough of feeling so sorry for myself, for telling myself that it really wasn't my fault.
It was you that was a wanker, why cant i just leave everything behind and forget about the past.
I've been trying so hard to move on. To act like there's nothing wrong. This is so frustrating.
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Im screaming i love you so,
But my thoughts you cant decode
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Is it over yet, can i open my eyes
This is as hard as it gets
Is this what it feels like to really cry |
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| Finally!!! |
[Jun. 6th, 2009|04:11 pm] |
I have been trying to convince people but no one seems to believe me! Now even Jason Mraz agress, YESSS!!!!!!!!!!!
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In the June issue of Cosmopolitan, Jason Mraz gave his take on “10 Things Guys Wish You Knew,” Below are his answers:
1. You look sexy when you’re puffy from lying on the pillow all night.
2. We don’t understand your addiction to celebrity gossip. Whatever you do, don’t talk about it on a date.
3. Guys get a monthly type of PMS too. We get moody and need our space.
4. It’s the hottest thing when you say, “Are you going to kiss me now?”
5. We read and reread your texts and e-mails.
6. It’s annoying when a girl continues to ask, “What’s really on your mind?” Eventually, the answer is going to be “You asking stupid questions is what’s on my mind.”
7. A lot of us are insecure about our bodies. Women look like beautiful, soft, gorgeous angels when they’re naked. We look like hairy ogres or little scrawny trolls.
8. It’s cool when a girl isn’t weird about food. I love a woman who will eat something slimy.
9. Never tell a guy he’s just like your father. It creeps us out.
10. Put on a men’s dress shirt and nothing else. We’ll be able to unbutton it no problem, and it shows off your legs in a wonderful way.
Cosmopolitan, print edition, July, 2009
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| Screw this shit |
[May. 28th, 2009|09:28 pm] |
I feel so trapped, so enclosed. Isnt freedom supposed to come with age? Seriously wtf is wrong with all of yous. You're treating everyone like they're 5 or something. You need to wake up and realize that whatever you're doing isnt working cause no one is happy at all. Im really sick of all the crap that you give. Why should i even bother listening to you? Im only doing it cause i still respect you and i dont want to embarrass you in front of everyone else. urgh.
Im so pissed off and im just too tired to deal with anything more really. You want everyone to do things your way, to make sure things go your way. Well im sorry, thats not going to happen so just deal with it and move on.
f*** all of yous.
i've had enough of this. |
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| Its ok, its alright |
[May. 24th, 2009|01:11 am] |
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I thought you were man enough to face the truth. Defend what you always feel is right and what you fight for. You always say that you wanna be different, not like the rest of your friends. You wanted to make it big in life. You had all these goals and ambitions in life and i was glad you found something you wanted to do. I did my best as a friend to be supportive.
We were close, or so i thought. I guess that's all changed now. I had fun during those times and it was nice knowing you. I wish you all the best in life. You'll need all the support you can get. Im not sure if i'll still be here when the storm comes, you had your shot and you didn't take it. Take care my friend. |
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| You're such a wanker/tosser |
[May. 8th, 2009|11:03 pm] |
Bloody hell, you get cold treatment for being nice.
Screw you bitch!
You wanker/tosser! |
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| Once a WHORE, you're nothing more.... |
[May. 8th, 2009|10:27 pm] |
I thought being civil was the right way to go. I thought that if I made the first move and not act childishly, things would have been better? Like everything I imagined was just in my head and I was making up stuff just to scare myself. I thought that I was in fact being a little bit paranoid at certain points in time as well. Maybe it was just me you know? I was the weird one that everyone hated, that everyone wanted to avoid. Maybe I scared you away. I always try to put myself down, to make things turn ugly, to think of the worst case scenario, to prepare myself. So that at least when shit happens, I kinda know what to expect. And if things don't get that bad everything will be alright. Or not so bad at least.
Sadly this time, I certainly wasnt being paranoid because everything was true. Maybe you are avoiding me, maybe all of yous are. So evs, seriously evs, F*** ALL OF YOU. You can just stuff it up. I don't really give a shit anymore. Do whatever you like, its fine by me. I've done what I can already, done what I promised to and I guess that just wansnt good enough. So I'll just leave it as that.
Have a nice life... |
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| Greetings from Aus |
[May. 5th, 2009|10:37 am] |
Hey everyone (:
Everything's great so far! The weather in Brissy was smashing! We were literally going around in T-Shirts and jeans most of the time cause it was so hot! The beaches were amazing as well. I didnt shop much but i bought heaps of cds and ate so much hahah. My vegetarianism is still on the way but I've limited down to 1 meal per day here but when i go back its going to be more for sure! Well thats about it haha. Im in syd now and its so cold!
Peace will update soon!
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I hate you for what you did to me. I thought you were something more than you or everyone said you were. I thought differently of you. I had faith in you. But right now, I hate to say this but I feel that whatever your friends have said of you and whatever that you have said about yourself is completely and sadly true. You're no different really. You made me really upset with everything that you did. Im so pissed off that you dissed me and left me to rot. You said that you'd meet up and stuff and Im sure its not just cause of one person that you're not going out, but maybe something else which you refuse to tell me about. I sacrificed so much for you and came ALL the way down and all I got back was nothing, not even one full day. I broke my promise on several occassions and I always said that I'd make it up to you. I felt like shit when I never made it down the past couple of times and I know that you were really upset so I wanted to do something to make it up. You know what? I shoulda just never wasted my time at all cause the trip was kinda for you, plus a few of them of course, but mainly it was just to hang out and shit but I guess you had other more important things than to worry about silly old me. F*** you.
The worst part is you don't even give a f***ing explanation for you being such a total wanker and I thought you had the balls man. Clearly you dont.
I never want to see you ever again and I never want to talk to you ever again as well. You meant something to me, a lot actually, so I wish you all the best in your life, because I'm not going to be a part of it anymore. Have a nice life |
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| I hope this never comes true |
[Apr. 25th, 2009|10:15 pm] |
I was counting on forever, now i'll never know
I can't even breathe
Its like I'm looking from a distance,
Standing in the background
This can't be happening to me
This is just a dream... |
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