| Simon Is So Mean |
[Nov. 18th, 2009|10:11 pm] |
OHH MYY GOOODNESSS Simon is so mean to Cheryl Cole!! but it was funny lol. I loled. I just thought i should share their conversation. Its crazy funny ahahahaha. They were talking about the song Unchained Melody after one of Simon's group members performed on X-Factor and Cheryl gave good comments.
Simon: Just to be clear, the version that we were basing it on was done by U2, and i don't think that they are cheesy
Cheryl: No not that song, Unchained Melody??
Simon: Yes its Unchained Melody sweetheart. Look on youtube.
Simon continues to talk and the crowd boos him. Cheryl gives Simon a weird face, almost a wtf face. She was shocked he said that to her lol. its so funny!!1
Cheryl comes back to defend herself
Cheryl: I was nice to him by the way
the rest is irrelevant. but so funny oh man ahahha
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| Old Memories |
[Oct. 4th, 2009|12:49 am] |
I was just going through my bookmarks and found my old blog. Let me just say that its freaking hilarious. Im reading all the old stuff now and gosh its so embarrassing. Somethings have changed, but others have remained the same.
What's funny is that I have no idea what I'm talking about in most of the posts. Sometimes i use initials or just alphabets to describe certain people so that i don't disclose their true identity but reading it now doesnt bring back any memories at all. I have no idea who all the people I've mention are. Even some posts where i talk about my best friend, I'm like which best friend? I have no idea who I was referring to. Its quite hilarious really. I think its so funny and it just brings back so many memories, both good and bad.
Its like a self adventure as well perhaps. I've probably changed as a person. I dont think im the same person as i was before. Its a good reflection tho. A good wake up call.
Some how when you look back and read the posts, you wonder, was i really like that? Was I that weird and uncool? All we can do now is just laugh about it because it was us lol. But funny really really funny and entertaining.
Its like me and ilena are going on a self discovery trail. The journey of the life of ryan.
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| Perfect, Just Perfect |
[Sep. 23rd, 2009|10:32 pm] |
Sometimes, you feel that everything's going wrong at the same time, and the tunnel with the light at the end that everyone talks about is nowhere near at all and you know its never going to come, is really approaching some how. I can't explain to you in detail at all what it means because I have no idea where it is, but you just got to have faith that its there. Its cliche but really, its really really there at the end. All you have to do is hold on to whatever you have, the happy things in your life, the joyful moments and remember them during the hard times, pulling yourself as you live each day. One day, some day, that day will come.
It came for me yesterday + today. Carrie is amazing as usual and there is just no flaw in her at all. Paramore was disappointing for a while, but i was proven wrong, thankfully. I am so proud of you guys. Amazing work (: Kris, I thought at the rate that you were working, nothing good would come out of it but you surprise me ALL the time with your works and i should never have doubted you, you are one amazing musician as usual! Thank you.
Last but not least, the greatest joy of all. JUSTINE IS COMING BACK. I FOUND OUT THIS MORNING AT WORK AND I WAS THRILLED I COULDNT MOVE FOR LIKE 5 MINUTES LITERALLY, I WAS COVERING MY MOUTH GOING OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG WHILE WATCHING CHANNEL NEWS ASIA AND LISTENING TO HER SPEAKING IN FRENCH. It was just brilliant, i have to say that my day started really really well and it was just such satisfaction to know that some part of your life is whole again. Very exciting and I cannot wait. Thanks Justine <3 I love you!
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| Go on and lie to me, I'll believe the tihngs that you say.. |
[Sep. 13th, 2009|11:15 pm] |
Cause you're everywhere to me, and when I close my eyes its you I see.
Why is it that I can't seem to get you out of my head? I'm really sick of this feeling. Its distasteful and just repulsive. I am really tired of waiting and honestly I've already given up. I don't need this. I don't need you.
I'm so tired of life in general. I need a change, something new to refresh me, a small glimpse of hope perhaps. Like maybe something to look forward to. With such a small sum of income, or whatever you call it, its quite hard frankly trying to make whatever ends meet. i'm in seirous debt now and its piling. I don't like the feeling at all ):
Just when I thought that all hope was loss, a small glimpse really came to me. There are rumours spreading like wild fire about the eminent return of Justine. Even Kim confirmed that these rumours were some what true and it really put a smile on my face. I'm really excited for that to happen and maybe life would be so much better. A big part of me was torn apart when she left. I've tried restoring it, but its a painfully slow process. Nonetheless I am looking forward to what lies ahead of me (:
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Ting just emailed me saying that she thoroughly enjoyed the Espresso Cheesecake with Cranberry Sauce Topping that I made. I am very honoured and humbled that such a food connoisseur has had such a pleasant experience with the first dish that I've made for her. It really is a humbling experience and I am encouraged to work harder and produce better products! I thought it was a disaster, well by the looks anyways, but she enjoyed the taste and loved it. Thanks ting (:
Don't worry sab, when you come back i can bake for you cause ting said pass hahaha (:
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you know what I'll be fine without you.
Do this one thing for me, make up some stupid story. Its alright, keep your truths and tell me lies.
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| What are you? |
[Aug. 13th, 2009|09:54 pm] |
You treat me just like a stranger...
What happened to us really. Its like I don't know you anymore. Its like we're complete strangers. When we walk pass each other, its like we werent even friends. We dont even bother acknowledging each other. Did you change or did I change?
I don't know whats wrong but some people just need to learn to grow up. Life's not all about you and it sure as hell does not need to revolve around you. You need to learn what to say and what not to say. Sighh I really derno what to do. I keep asking myself how i got myself in this position. Why did this even happen to us. I never expected it to. I thought we were tight, guess not.
How did we get here?
I used to know you so well...
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 10th, 2009|08:44 pm] |
im so much better without you.
So its been a really long time since i've actually talked about my life and I just thought that today's events were completely shareable (: I love waking up on my bed at like 10 am every morning, thinking about nothing in life, doing nothing at all but just listening to my ipod. Sadly I don't do this at all. Most of the time I'm out of the house even before the sun rises, I sorta live in darkness and it saddens me. And on the weekends, I'm up early buzzing off to where ever I have to go, I've got practically no time for myself at all. But today was different, I loved it and I thoroughly enjoyed it. I took my own time to do whatever I wanted and really soaked up every bit of free time I had. I really enjoyed myself today (:
My mum, sister and I were watching Miss USA on TV today and The Veronicas performed. I was excited of course, I hate them but still, there's still a part of me that is a fan (shh dont tell anyone (: ). So i told my mum that they are twins. She said no way!! That's not possible because they do not look llike one another at all. And im like mum, they really are twins, seriously. So i showed her the older pictures of them, and she said yeah they do look sorta alike but she points to Lisa and says Lisa is prettier than Jess, Jess looked too mature for her liking. And i was like WOW even in Jess' glory days, the days when I was so in love with her I was convinced I was going to marry her, my own mum says that Lisa is prettier lol, epic fail on my part. Then i told my mum that I wanted to marry Jess, who now has blonde hair, she literrally gave me the WTF face. And i said what?? It was in the past, now not so much anymore cause Jess is fugged and really horrifying. She sorta gave a sigh of relief. It was hilarious hahaha!!!
And i baked today too (: The last time that happened, a lizard ate my cookies and i didnt even take any pictures. This time i made sure i did hahaha. So here goes, my black forest cookies (:
this is a preview
( Cookies ) |
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| What is wrong with you? |
[Aug. 2nd, 2009|10:56 pm] |
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Really, its not like I didn't try. I hardly even know you at all and you couldn't even bother being nice? I was doing you a favour and you gave me your stupid stinking attitude. Urgh I hate it, really do. Just cause you think you're bigger. BIG DEAL seriously. Who gives a freaking shit.
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Its so hard getting over something, someone especially you J, I'm not sure if I'm going to make it but I know I will. I thought I felt something for you J, something more, I was wrong. I'm glad I found out earlier, rather than going in too deep, then there will be no turning back. I found out that you're not the person that i thought you were. J, im very disappointed in you. I'd prolly blame myself for thinking too much if anything happened. You weren't the one....
I tried so hard to be the one, I don't like who I've become..
The reasons are gone, for why I was holding on to you
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| What? |
[Jul. 4th, 2009|10:26 pm] |
Why is it that when im standing there,
You don't even give two seconds?
Am a invincible to you,
Or is it that you really dont care at all?
If you don't, then why do you look my way,
Like a sign calling out to me.
Trying to reach out, guiding
Trying to participate in all I do?
Why waste your time and mine,
If you're not ready for this,
I will definitely not wait for you.
Time is ticking,
Im waiting for you to make your move.
You dont have much time... |
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| Amazed! |
[Jun. 28th, 2009|06:25 pm] |
So we just came back from the land where its 75% off land wide. For starters, not everything was 75% off, you'd be amazed how high they jack up prices because they know tourists would flock their areas. Its disgraceful how one meal, one not so hygienic, one that im so afraid to touch because its so fly infested, God knows what's been in the food, or how you get so freaked because the first thing that comes to your mind is hep b your first instinct is to run, can cost so much that its so much more than what you can find back home.
Another appaling discovery is that they fake almost every brand and promote them in departmental stores. FREAKING DEPARTMENTAL STORES AND NOT JUST ORDINARY ONES. They faked cotton on, fred perry, a&f, american eagle and many others, but seriously cotton on? You have to be joking! Who in the world would want to do that? Its a complete joke! You think just by flipping the logos, you can deceive innocent people thinking that they've bought the real deal, when it's some unknown brand with a logo that belongs to the real label only flipped? They think the label they've bought is amazing and must be real cause its from a departmental store and another name? Who are you trying to kid? What are you trying to promote here? I can't believe the audacity certain people have. It is extremely shocking! Very disgraceful behaviour!
And to fake cotton on? Why? Who in the world would do that! It is already so cheap, why would you want to do that? I've got nothing left to say. I guess its the reason why i never go there unless absolutely necessary. And im glad im not as crazed over it as certain people are. Never shall i step foot on soil like that for no good reason. Faking cotton on is not cool, fail!!' |
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| Pretend that im ok with it all, and act like there's nothing wrong |
[Jun. 10th, 2009|08:52 pm] |
Why is it that after all these years of trying, i can never seem to forget?
Its been so long and just the mention of your name and i feel like crap.
I try to pretend that everything's ok, i thought that they were
I guess i was just merely storing that distant memory at the back of my mind, hoping to never bring it back again.
But why at such a small mention, my whole world starts to turn, why does it have to hurt so bad.
I don't want to continue feeling like that anymore.
I've had enough of feeling so sorry for myself, for telling myself that it really wasn't my fault.
It was you that was a wanker, why cant i just leave everything behind and forget about the past.
I've been trying so hard to move on. To act like there's nothing wrong. This is so frustrating.
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Im screaming i love you so,
But my thoughts you cant decode
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Is it over yet, can i open my eyes
This is as hard as it gets
Is this what it feels like to really cry |
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